by Meixia

OOTD: I Burn

I woke up in the middle of the night, my body silently burning in the darkness. As sweat oozed through my pores, I remember the dream that jolted me back from the realms of sleep. As with other nights like this one, you have come to haunt me. Slowly, you slip your way into my unconscious mind – insidious and unwanted.

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I burn, oh how much I burn for you! Thoughts of you are gradually chipping away my resistance. Twist and turn I go, battling with the blankets that threaten to suffocate me. If only I could give in, if only I could let you claim your victory… but at what cost?

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The last time I let you in, you conquered my world completely. You plundered and pillaged the strongholds of my being until I was nothing but a slave to your desires.You called and I ran eager to please. You demanded and I gave until there was nothing left.

In the end, however, you left to fight another battle. I had nothing more that you desired.

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Despite these, I have managed to rise from the ashes. Brick by painful brick, I managed to rebuild what you have so callously destroyed. Sometimes, I have even found myself happy. Some nights, I have succeeded in forgetting you.

Life goes on and we either swim with the current or drown in despair.

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Tonight, however, I choose to let myself teeter at the edge of despair. You have come back, trying to claim what you call yours. Yet, I have refused you. I am not stupid. I have not forgotten your faults. Yet this body, this traitorous body, wants its missing part back. It wants the heart that you had undeservedly stolen away.

Will you give it back and leave me be?

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You see, you have shown me the beauty of the world with your kisses. Together, we soared so high, my lungs pained in its effort to breathe in oxygen. With your touch, you left me with a fever with no cure. Now, the fever has returned ever stronger and as much as I want to fight you, rail at you, I seek the relief that you alone can promise.

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Shall I give in? Shall I let you conquer my fortress once more? Shall I take a chance at happiness, no matter how momentary?

Oh,I burn, I burn! The night offers me no answers yet I live for the hope that daylight will  bring me peace.

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Outfit Details:

  • Dress from my grandma’s closet which I reworked to make it more up-to-date
  • Shoes from Parisian
  • Necklace and Bracelet from SM Accessories
  • Earrings from my Aunty
  • Belt from SM Department Store

I know, this post doesn’t make a lot of sense yet sometimes, I am overtaken by the need to just write whatever comes to mind. At this hour (around 3AM), these thoughts have flowed through my mind. No, these are not a reflection of what’s happening in my life (except maybe for the fact that it’s terribly hot here in the Philippines) but merely late night ramblings of an alter ego, perhaps. 🙂

Also, I’m in love with this peachy color at the moment. It’s so refreshing and light – perfect for Spring / Summer 🙂

Hope you enjoyed! 🙂

P.S. I apologize in advance for typos. I am too tired to reread this post and correct any lapses in my mind, eye, and hand coordination. Maybe tomorrow 🙂

P.P.S. This is my entry to the GIG Spotlight Series 5 Spring Fever hosted by  Caity of Moi Contre La Vie  & Mari of I Love Green Inspiration

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39 thoughts on “OOTD: I Burn”

  4. Woooaaah! I wouldn’t have noticed that your dress is from your grandma! And yes, that peachy color is so lovely~ It’ll make you more blooming for spring/summer. Anyway, I love how bold yet vulnerable your rambling is. It’s funny ’cause I always, always get the feeling that your words reflect what you feel or have gone through. But I think I understand how when you start writing, someone different just takes over. Someone with his/her own share of ideals, experiences and emotions.. ^^

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  9. wow this is amazing! love love what you write all the times! you have done it again! you look so pretty as well, love the last few pictures, they are my fav! big hugs ❤

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  16. You look gorgeous as always hun, and great writing! I really like the necklace and how you’ve tweaked the dress, looking so chic and fresh. Thanks for joining the spotlight too! xx Donah

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    1. Glad you liked dress 😀 I’m really glad I can wear my grandma’s old dresses. Sort of brings back memories of her 🙂

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  17. I swear I could’ve written that myself! Those were my exact same emotions last night. I’m not kidding! Though, I wish I could pull off a look like that too. Awesome dress. Splendid writing. What more could you ask for? You’ve got it all 🙂

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  24. nice dress! i have some of my mom’s clothes too! No grandma though. they’re far away from us haha as i’ve said on fb the photos looks really good! ang gaganda ng shots mo! xx

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  27. I get that feeling too when you just want to write and pour out your thoughts.. how you integrated it to your outfit posts were just perfect. And yes.. peach is so perfect for summer! Love your dress. 🙂

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